n yes, i still procrastinate so i didnt't post anything for a long while.
which makes it hard for ppl to understand my feelings n all...
but anyways, remember FARIS?
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE???
yes, he's back in my life...(altho not exactly BACK in the real sense)..
we text everyday, wish each other good morning, happy working, have a nice day ahead, happy lunchtime, safe journey back home from the office, good night and chat about what we've been up to all day...(pretty much like when we were a couple..MINUS the lovey-dovey from his side tho) but he said he "doesn't want to be in a relationship with me. ever. not anymore"
"orang xkan balik kat awak..buat la ape pon..." WHATTHEFUCKKKKK?
what's baffing is, he went AWOL for about a year, hook up with somebody else,change his number, and left me to bleed n die alone. i went crazy, i was depressed, hide in my own shell....UNTIL i feel like, ok, maybe this is what Allah had set out for me. as much as i love him with all my heart n soul n body n mind, if it is written that my destiny is with somebody else, let me just meet that "destiny" a.s.a.p n forget all about him...
then after i'm kinda healed, n not TRYING to text n call n stalk him so much, HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME.
WITH HIS NEW NUMBER WHICH I HAD NO IDEA OF.
if he really hates me,
WHY IN BLOODY HELL DOES HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME?
the only explanation i can think of right now is, maybe HE is my destiny.
that's why he came back.
but again, WHY IN FREAKIN' BLOODY HELL DOES HE SAY HE'LL NEVER BE MINE AGAIN???
what kind of sick twisted reality is this?
so being the new, 'mature' me, i decided to lay low, try to win his heart back by being sweet n loving like i naturally am with him and pray harder to god to make him love me again....
that's my BIG PLAN right now.
only hurdle is them bitches trying to hit on my baby boo like nobody's business. i hope they rot in hell. i really do.but before that,
fuck u. seriously.
yes, i'm a jealous bitch. but seriously; GET AWAY FROM MY EX, BITCHES!
