get AWAY from my ex, bitches!!!

after a while, a lot has happened.
n yes, i still procrastinate so i didnt't post anything for a long while.
which makes it hard for ppl to understand my feelings n all...
but anyways, remember FARIS?
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE???
yes, he's back in my life...(altho not exactly BACK in the real sense)..
we text everyday, wish each other good morning, happy working, have a nice day ahead, happy lunchtime, safe journey back home from the office, good night and chat about what we've been up to all day...(pretty much like when we were a couple..MINUS the lovey-dovey from his side tho) but he said he "doesn't want to be in a relationship with me. ever. not anymore"
"orang xkan balik kat awak..buat la ape pon..." WHATTHEFUCKKKKK?
what's baffing is, he went AWOL for about a year, hook up with somebody else,change his number, and left me to bleed n die alone. i went crazy, i was  depressed, hide in my own shell....UNTIL i feel  like, ok, maybe this is what Allah had set out for me. as much as i love him with all my heart n soul n body n mind, if it is written that my destiny is with somebody else, let me just meet that "destiny" a.s.a.p n forget all about him...
then after i'm kinda healed, n not TRYING to text n call n stalk him so much, HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME.
WITH HIS NEW NUMBER WHICH I HAD NO IDEA OF.
if he really hates me,
WHY IN BLOODY HELL DOES HE CAME LOOKING FOR ME?
the only explanation i can think of right now is, maybe HE is my destiny.
that's why he came back.
but again, WHY IN FREAKIN' BLOODY HELL DOES HE SAY HE'LL NEVER BE MINE AGAIN???
what kind of sick twisted reality is this?
so being the new, 'mature' me, i decided to lay low, try to win his heart back by being sweet n loving like i naturally am with him and pray harder to god to make him love me again....
that's my BIG PLAN right now.
only hurdle is them bitches trying to hit on my baby boo like nobody's business. i hope they rot in hell. i really do.but before that, i hope they got into a car crash where their face got all disfigured n ugly n they can't text, tweet, talk or whatever.  no, i just hope they love someone as much as i love faris, then have something exactly like what happened to me, happen to THEM. that'd be awesome. to every each n one of them. let them feel the hurt i feel when i saw them tweeting my faris... "nak tumpang bahu boleh?nk nanges kejap" "faris, nak itu, nak ini".. "nanti kte klua berdue eyh?" "dah kenyang, nak golek2 ngan faris"
fuck u. seriously.

yes, i'm a jealous bitch. but seriously; GET AWAY FROM MY EX, BITCHES!

distance by christina perri - i lurrrve this song~! ^^

The sun is filling up the room, and I can hear you dreaming.
Do you feel the way I do? Right now.
I wish we would just give up, 'cause the best part is falling.
Call it anything but love.
And I will make sure to keep my distance.
Say I love you, and you're not listening.
And how long can we keep it slow? Oh, oh.

Please don't stand so close to me; I'm having trouble breathing.
I'm afraid of what you'll see right now.
I give you everything I am, all my broken heartbeats, until I know you'll understand.
And I will make sure to keep my distance.
Say I love you, and you're not listening.
And how long can we keep it slow? Oh, oh, oh.

And I keep waiting for you to take me.
You keep waiting to say what we have.

So I'll make sure to keep my distance.
Say I love you, and you're not listening.
And how long can we keep it slow? Oh, oh, oh.

Make sure to keep my distance.
Say I love you, and you're not listening.
How long 'till we call this love, love, love?

herbalife- here i come!!!

so ok, me n che atas (my eldest sis) are starting with this new diet thingy..
actually it's not so much about dieting..
remember my stage 4 cyst?
the one the doc said i MIGHT have to get rid of my rahim(womb??)?
well, there's this kakak who said that her cyst gets smaller after drinking herbalife ..
so, we decided to try.. :)
yes, to become a member, the minimum fee is about rm 1800.00..
so che atas said she'd buy the first set n will split the portion with me..
then after that finishes, i'd buy the next set n split it with her...
aren't we geniuses?
haha..
so yeah, anyways, my portion arrived yesterday.
n since i don't wanna call the kakak coz she'd talk my ears off, i decided to try googling for the way to drink the shakes n stuff.
n came up with this:
aloe vera concentrate(3 capful + water) n teamix(half a teaspoon + water) in the morning, shakes(2 scoops of F1 + 1 scoop of F3 + water) to replace breakfast n lunch or breakfast n dinner...
n teamix in the afternoon n prolly aloe vera at night.
actually i haven't decided on this yet n maybe..just MAYBE, i'd end up calling that kakak soon.. :D
wish me luck...
i sooo want my sickness to be, well, BETTER.
GOOD LUCK ME!
:)

Kanon Wakeshima - Still Doll (ost vampire knight)

luurrrve this song~!
jom nyanyi same2!
hehe... ;)

Hi, Miss Alice

Anata garasu no

Me de donna yume wo

Mirareru no? 

Mirareru no? 

Mata atashi

Kokoro ga sakete

Nagarederu

Tsukurotta

Sukima ni sasaru

Kioku-tachi

Hi, Miss Alice

Anata kajitsu no

Kuchi de dare ni ai wo

Nageteru no? 

Nageteru no? 

Mou atashi

Kotoba o tsumaku

Shita no netsu

Same kitte

Mederu outau mo

Utaenai

Still, you do not answer

kewl kan?

thanks to bayu sbb kenalkan aku ngan lagu ni.. <3

i'm a big fat lazy ass!

ye, saye pemalas...
slame ni blogging dlm ati je..
when i see something awesome, i talk to myself...
now that makes me lazy AND crazy. wth??
hahahaha...
xpe, pasni start rajen..
OR i can start uploading pics from my bb.
YES. bb.
baru ok?
blackberry 4 a.k.a blackberry 9360. white!
with awesome os 7.
*bangge*
xla mahal mane..
what to do, aku ni kan lawyer sengkek...
ngahahaha....
happy rajin-ing,to me.
(^__^)

say wazzup to olen~!

guess what??
polly n intan was returned to their owner exactly a week after we took them in.
:(
i was kinda pissed so the day after we returned them, mom called her other friend and as soon as i came back from work, me n mom went to choose the kitten we want at mom's friend's house...
blahblahblah n hey, we choose olen...
YEAYYYYYY~!!!

this is olen when he went to work with me... :)

gerek x gerek? ;)

Johor village ‘paved in gold’