fgs, stop thinking n just LIVE!

yes.
yes.
YES.
i slack off BIG TIME!
hahaha..
anyways, i promise myself that i'm gonna write so i'm gonna write.
some times.
when i'm free.
heeehehehe~!
so as usual, the updates:
1. faz a.k.a fifie is MUTE. no news, no nothing. he promised to go out with me after the exams are over but wth, if he breaks his promise then i'm gonna make him guilty as hell~! ^_^ yakin deh~!!
2. i think i gained some of the weight i've lost after the op. goddammit, my clothes are not that loose anymore. grr! gotta start eating healthy stuff like i did after the op. coz i can't jog or do sports (at least that's what my sis said- no running, jogging, futsal, blahblahblah coz there's still something INSIDE me.) T_T
3. faris still ignores me.
yes, the love of my life is prolly actually happy without me in his life. isn't this WONDERFUL? yeaaah it is~!  and despite all the rainbows n sunshine, i miss him truckloads till my heart feels like bursting, e.v.e.r.y.d.a.y.! :(
i miss u like hell, bie...

isn't his tummy cute~?
<3 (^^,) <3

4. rainbows n sunshine? yeap, u've heard it right..
there IS a little bit of rainbows n sunshine in my life now... ^_^ it comes in the form of a superskinny ex-rockstar who plays the bass n have this *awwww* hair. ;)

encik papan a.k.a nuffy~! ^^

his hair is a lil' shorter now but i already made him promise to grow em long again.. ;) *me likey~!* haha!

so...
ok, i'll blog more later...
ttyl~! <3

the lonely - by ME! ^^

i lost my adam...

br jap td, at about 8pm...
i lost my adam..
poor lil' Adam Ryan, he was lying all weak n helpless as i got back from work.
i honestly tried my best, i went to the vet i once took the bunnies to, n it was CLOSED.
then i frantically sped to the one in kebun teh. 
no, it was closed too...
then i ran out of fuel n had to gas up..
then i went all the way to BBU n look for a vet..
none was open, so i went to a petshop n asked the guy instead..
"maaf kak, klinik haiwan seme tutop dlm kol 5..akk try call number ni..."
so i DID called the vet...n he told me what to do..
he said adam is prolly dehidrated n i need to give him milk n more milk....
tp adam dh tercungap2..sedihgile tgk die..keciiiik je~
:'(
but as soon as i  parked my car at home, i lost adam...
adam dh x bernafas.. 
:'(
i'm sooo sorry, baby...
mama xleh nk tlg awk..awk dh lemah sgt...
*sob!*
i buried him next to luna mlm tu gak....
rest in peace my baby bunny...
smoge adam happy ngan mama luna...
(T__T)

for the sake of posting... (^^,)

see????
i've slacked off.
that's SOOOO me..
so anyways, here's an update...
* mom will be having an operation tomorrow at the hosp..i hope everything goes well...mom is 73, but she's one tough cookie...so i KNOW she'd be ok.. <3
* next thing is; i just had my last checkup yesterday..
well, not really LAST. but yeah. last one with meds. guess what the doc said???
i have to get married n have babies FAST n then we can get rid of my rahim. damn hell. who am i gonna marry?
* 3rd thing : i think faz is avoiding me. O__o i know spm is coming but please....text je kot?
i'll write more about him later. maybe.
* 4th thing is..i went out with fared afterall. the stupid boy yelled at me in front of all these ppl just coz i wanted to smoke. what the heck?? for god's sake, i'm 30!! chiiiillll~!!!!
*  5th thing...i hope hope hope that oreo n adaam will be ok coz they had diarrhoea semlm. bought them to the vet on tuesday n she said see what happens in 2 days' time.... mintak2 my babies sehat!! <3 <3 <3


so that's it.back to work..
(^o^)

kejakonan melande a.k.a i know i'll figure this out! :)

2nd post- yep, still trying to figure out how to post stuff...
haha..lawak btol...
fared kinda spoiled my mood..indecisive brat! td ye2 kate nk hangout esok..ni aku text tanye sok kol baper dh die kate xnk jmpe lak...bengong..(@__@)
lantak die lah..
guess i'd just go splurge..thinking to get a 2nd phone..
a basic one will do..it's kinda sad to still keep on using faris' nokia...
i'm nothing to him now, why'd i go on using his stuff n missing him all the time??
woooo~!!
n still still still sad about luna...
miss u so much honeybunny... salu klw saket ati leh je g bual2 ngan luna...
ni???g kubo die je... *sob!*

The Band Perry - If I Die Young : for my beloved luna...

first post ever! a.k.a - can i hate my own sister??

so i've been wanting to start blogging for AGES. tp, yes, m.a.l.a.s.
so today a lotta things happened...
for one, i lost my beloved bunny...my baby.. LolaLuna... :(
idk what happened...one minute she was fine n scampering n hopping, one minute she was....RIGID!
nnt aku citer lg eyh? ni nk citer pnjg2 kang ade lak kepochi yg nyebok n nak biseng sbb sok raye n aku sebok nk on9...
oh yes, selamat ari raye aji...

guess luna went on a very good time indeed. eve of eid..

(T_T)
tp aku sedih gak.. these are pics of luna when i just got her in april this year.. (easter, 2011)
now she's all grown up...
walaupn br 7 bln of my love n care...
tmbh lg, she just gave birth to 2 tiny bunnies 4 days back...n the fact that i'm taking care of the bunnies with all the love n care makes my sisters bitch like hell...
that's why i'm wondering; can i hate my own sister? YES, PLEASE?
they seem kinda evil n heartless.
org tgh sedih kot, ko xya membebel bleh x?
CI....lake tol...
:(


<3 u, luna..
LolaLuna .... 5/11/2011 (around 11.30am)
mama sentiase syg luna walaupn kdg2 mama mrh bile luna noti..
*sob!!*
semoge luna tido tenang dlm bumi k, baby?
mama janji akan jage baby2 luna dgn baek n love diorg cam mama love luna...
(T_T)